The organizing principle of my daily life is I go to work most days, visit with family and friends on weekends, travel and enjoy my husband. A pretty simple organizing principle.
When St Therese’ of Lisieux wrote this statement in about 1890, she was profoundly speaking to what I struggle with today. The trap I fall into is trying to perfectly get my spiritual and corporal lives together. I want silence, peaceful meditation, and intimate close relationships with long talks about what matters most. I want to feel physically healthy and pain free, emotionally fulfilled and happy, and spiritually connected during my days.
I keep failing.
Then I ponder the words of St. Therese. I realize that I am holding onto my “suffering” as I struggle for perfection. My “tragic wounds” that I have so unsuccessfully struggled with most of my adult life require surrender to them. The spiritual angst of this struggle IS the spiritual path I am longing to follow. This path is turning me into a wise and holy person.
Now I understand the opening quote. I have organized my life around increasing awareness of my imperfections and it is turning me into a compassionate, peaceful, expansive person.
Just what I was after in the first place! My spiritual life is organizing around my imperfections! Why didn’t someone tell me that long ago?!