Reporting a lovely experience.
This winter, an old friend made contact. We met for coffee and caught up; it was great to see them. A few days later, they called again and suggested dinner. I agreed, we made plans, we said goodbye. I was totally unprepared for what happened next! Even writing it now, I’m having the most lovely feeling.
Here’s my report:
What I experienced:
- The whole inside of my body turned colors, mostly reds and blues.
- The whole inside of my skin felt like I’d combined baking soda and vinegar inside my body – it’s my non-toxic recipe for sluggish drain cleaner!!!
- My face was feeling so fine and I couldn’t keep my lips together; they just melted into a smile allllll over my face.
- My legs lifted my body until I was up on the balls of my feet and dancing soooooo hard; whooping and humming.
That part was exactly – really exactly – like some other times in my life. My early adulthood, but that got complicated so fast, so the above experience was fleeting. This was like high school - without the shame and fear. The time where you didn’t think to ask, ”Is this the person I’m meant to be with?” It wasn’t relevant.
What I added:
- The wisdom to know – to really know – what exactly this lovely experience means – and does not mean.
- All happening while dancing.
- As someone sez – priceless.
What I heard:
It was a divine experience – really, divine. I heard a voice; really. So, since only me and the god of my understanding were there, I have to accept it was one of us. Whatever; it was/is/will always be used fullll---
“Joy stands alone”
I knew immediately what I/we meant.
- That this feeling – described above – was the essence of joy; the little volcano in my body that was wonderful.
- Whatever happens next does not change the quality or memory or reality of that experience.
- No matter what, joy stands alone.
- And, joy stands alone. It does not change an experience into a reality.
- That’s different work; joy stands alone.
How’d the future turn out? Still friends; no volcanoes.
Susan Beyler, Integrative Therapist