Kabbalah Gratitude for The Estuary, by Molly Brown, Guest Blogger and School of Healing Arts Student

This is a letter written to Estuary Founder and Executive Director, Susan Austin-Crumpton from Molly Brown, her student of many years:

I have felt compelled to write you all morning so that’s what I’m doing. I just have to share my experience with you and the second phase of what I believe are new beginnings.  Last night when I got home I felt the most profound peace, warmth and gratitude that I have had in a long time thanks to The Estuary. 

My heat went out downstairs.  It was freezing but it seemed the warmth radiating from within me was enough to fill the room and I was not a bit cold.  The last time I was in class I was encouraged to start praying for God to Reveal his Mysteries to Me and to start writing about whatever was on my mind.  I did start praying more than I have been writing, mainly because of time constraints but probably some resistance too. 

Then an event took place that shattered my calm.  I shook my head, shuttered and sighed in denial that this could be one of his mysteries but I am beginning to see that just maybe it is.   I still have the bible verse on my refrigerator that you gave to our class last year.

"Now I am revealing new things to you
Things hidden and unknown to you
Created just now, this very moment.
Of these things you have heard nothing until now.
So that you cannot say
Oh Yes, I knew this.
"

              Isaiah 48:6-7

 I have read that over many times.

Yesterday I came into your office about to explode inside because I had nowhere to go within me.  I felt cornered, as if I wanted to blow up with some great gifts that God had put in my path.

I believe God had me where he wanted me for that moment.  God had me in Susan Austin-Crumpton’s office, on her sofa, with just you, the great solvent, and me.

Susan, thank you and The Estuary for showing me my blind spots, for shaking me up enough to make me see.  Thank you for teaching me how to love better and to have the courage to carry through with it.  I have been shown and am continuing to be shown there is Light woven into the darkness.  It is like a prickly cactus in the barren desert:  If you allow yourself to be pricked it will give you enough water to quench your thirst.  In order to create illumination, the lesson and the gift must always come together and must be received at the same time.  I believe these things completely but would not have if I had not had the experience. 

So thank you for all your wisdom, help, hand holding, and edging me up enough to experience some of the greatest gifts in the world.  Gifts that all the riches could not buy.  Today is good and I also know that the upcoming weeks will bring more of the yesterday's cacti.  I am grateful for all your help.  Thank you.                  

 

Molly Brown
Guest blogger and School of Healing Arts student