Relationship With Myself, by Susan Austin-Crumpton

I hate that I feel irritated and notice that the pictures hang crooked in my office and in my home. I wait in line at the grocery feeling none of the “goodness” of buying organic foods that others seem to be secretly smiling about.  I listen to a righteous diatribe about why “my smoking is not hurting anyone but myself” and I think of that person’s children, and parents, and spouse and friends.

I am judging, critical and negative.

When I am feeling this negativity, I am in relationship TO myself and other people instead of in relationship WITH myself and other people.  This is a sign that I am feeling separate, judgmental and alone; far away from relationship with myself and the Universe.  My intent is to be in relationship WITH, but instead I get stuck in preconceived ideas about what is “right” and “how things ought to be”.  I get stuck in how others or how I should believe in any given situation.

Relationship WITH occurs when I explore my own inner landscape of feelings and emotions.  Relationship WITH occurs when I join others as they enter into “not knowing” how they feel or who they are.

Cultivating a healthy relationship WITH what is going on in my head and my inner space is crucial to quieting the negativity that resounds when I am only in relationship TO.  I have been instructed by my society to be cruel in my relationship TO myself and to the messages inside my head.  I judge myself and then I judge my judgments!   I tell myself I’ve got a problem or that I AM the problem.

I want to give myself space and silence to find a resting place inside.  I want to know that I can never figure everything out in life with my intellect.  What works for me is feeling my way through my life not thinking my way through my life!

Today I am giving up the thought that if someone or something would change then I could change it.  Today I take responsibility for my own inner growth and change.  I am entering into relationship with my inner space and I rest and accept responsibility for my own awareness.

Susan Austin-Crumpton
Founder & Executive Director, The Estuary
Email:   susanaustincrumpton@theestuary.org

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Susan Austin-Crumpton

Susan Austin-Crumpton, Executive Director and Founder of The Estuary and The School of Healing Arts. Susan’s intention to be fully present and alive with passion and joy requires an authenticity that is her hallmark. Dedication to study and commitment to her clients and students provides The Estuary and the community involved with purpose and meaning not often found in traditional leadership. Susan Austin-Crumpton speaks of The Estuary as being like a wheel, with the staff being each of the spokes, the programs and services as the rim and she is the hub of energy and identity at the center. As the founder of The Estuary and The School of Healing Arts, she has developed the healing techniques and skills taught by the school and integrated into the individual practices of the staff. Susan’s leadership, innovative practice methods and classes have created the foundation of The Estuary and The School. Her varied career history as business owner, a teacher, and a psychotherapist, make her uniquely qualified to bring grounding to healing practices that originate outside the medical and psychological mainstream. Her techniques are truly complimentary to allopathic medicine and traditional psychotherapy, not in conflict with them, as is evidenced by the community support and acceptance over the past twenty years. As the primary teacher at The School of Healing Arts she combines the techniques of energy healing and psychology with Kabbalistic principles into her psychotherapy techniques that bring lasting change into the lives of those who work with her. She works with individuals and groups specializing in depression, anxiety, couples, health issues, addiction, and spiritual connection to life’s meaning and purpose. Susan has completed four years of study in healing science with The Barbara Brennan School of Healing Science and three years of study in Integrative Kabbalistic Healing with Jason Shulman's A Society of Souls. She also holds a degree in counseling psychology from the University of Louisville. She is a pastoral counselor ordained by The Estuary. Susan specializes in integrating transpersonal psychology with energy therapies effectively embodying the mind, body and spirit connection. She has been in private practice for 18 years serving individual processes, coupleship work, group experiences, and health related issues. She is the primary teacher at The School of Self Healing Arts and teaches transpersonal psychology, energy anatomy and therapies, world religion, and experiential therapy techniques. Susan is married and has two daughters and two grandchildren. She loves to study, to learn and grow personally and professionally, and is committed to the well being of her family, students and clients.