Ocean of Trust, by Susan Austin-Crumpton

"If you don’t become the ocean
You’ll be seasick everyday."
     -Leonard Cohen

Everything has me confused and irritable.
Is it politics?  Upcoming Holidays?  Am I working too much?
Maybe, I’m not working enough?
I have no answers.
 
I want everything fixed!  Settled!  Calm!  Certain!
That’s it!  I want everything certain and stable.
My distorted belief is that I will be safe then.
It never happens.
 
I read an introduction to a book by John Sanford where he describes his childhood home and how they drank pure delicious water from a well on their property.  It was wonderful, clean artesian water that dripped sparkling, beautiful water.

One-day city water came with pipes and bills.  They switched over from the water they had to carry, to water from a faucet.  Many years passed.
 
Then he returned to the old home place to open the old well and taste that delicious water again.  But lo and behold the well had completely dried up.   Seems that an artesian well needs to be continually drawn from in order to continue to work, to provide.  When it is not used it forms crystals and gets blocked up.

Hmmmm . . . As a lover of metaphor here it is.

What is it in me that I am not using?  What am I not receiving from the Universe that keeps my spirit clean and sparkling?  I believe I have an answer that works for me.

It is a trusting, curiosity that drips throughout my daily life, and myself, that has proven over and over again that even when things seem bad and not working out, something is changed for the better.  Even if it seems to get worse at first, I must always use hindsight to prove this to myself.  I can never see it in the now.  It’s the looking back . . .finding the truth, learned or developed, that reassures and calms me in the present moment.
 
I am finding that part of myself dripping toward the ocean of truth and hope trying to avoid the irritability of being seasick and lost at sea once again!
 
For this belief I am grateful.
         

Susan Austin-Crumpton
Executive Director & Founder
The Estuary, Inc.

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Susan Austin-Crumpton

Susan Austin-Crumpton, Executive Director and Founder of The Estuary and The School of Healing Arts. Susan’s intention to be fully present and alive with passion and joy requires an authenticity that is her hallmark. Dedication to study and commitment to her clients and students provides The Estuary and the community involved with purpose and meaning not often found in traditional leadership. Susan Austin-Crumpton speaks of The Estuary as being like a wheel, with the staff being each of the spokes, the programs and services as the rim and she is the hub of energy and identity at the center. As the founder of The Estuary and The School of Healing Arts, she has developed the healing techniques and skills taught by the school and integrated into the individual practices of the staff. Susan’s leadership, innovative practice methods and classes have created the foundation of The Estuary and The School. Her varied career history as business owner, a teacher, and a psychotherapist, make her uniquely qualified to bring grounding to healing practices that originate outside the medical and psychological mainstream. Her techniques are truly complimentary to allopathic medicine and traditional psychotherapy, not in conflict with them, as is evidenced by the community support and acceptance over the past twenty years. As the primary teacher at The School of Healing Arts she combines the techniques of energy healing and psychology with Kabbalistic principles into her psychotherapy techniques that bring lasting change into the lives of those who work with her. She works with individuals and groups specializing in depression, anxiety, couples, health issues, addiction, and spiritual connection to life’s meaning and purpose. Susan has completed four years of study in healing science with The Barbara Brennan School of Healing Science and three years of study in Integrative Kabbalistic Healing with Jason Shulman's A Society of Souls. She also holds a degree in counseling psychology from the University of Louisville. She is a pastoral counselor ordained by The Estuary. Susan specializes in integrating transpersonal psychology with energy therapies effectively embodying the mind, body and spirit connection. She has been in private practice for 18 years serving individual processes, coupleship work, group experiences, and health related issues. She is the primary teacher at The School of Self Healing Arts and teaches transpersonal psychology, energy anatomy and therapies, world religion, and experiential therapy techniques. Susan is married and has two daughters and two grandchildren. She loves to study, to learn and grow personally and professionally, and is committed to the well being of her family, students and clients.