Shattering Moments, by Susan Austin-Crumpton

“There is no sphere of the Other Side (darkness)
that entirely lacks some streak of light
from the side of holiness”
                                             Zohar II:69a-b

I don’t like summer.

I know, I know!  Most of you do like it!  My husband loves it.  He loves to be hot, to feel the sun, and the extended light of the long days.

I love rain, clouds and dark days.  On those days I feel free and exempt from all duties.  My soul feels free!  Maybe it was because my Baptist Grandmother always gave herself permission not to go to church on the Sundays it rained.  She believed being in the rain made one sick!  So I have permission to make my own choices on dark rainy days.

Maybe that is also why I love Kabbalah.  I remember the moment some twenty years ago in Kabbalah class when I had the “aha moment” that the Divine is just as present in the dark as it is in the light.  In my catechism days as a child I remember the answer to the question “Where is God”?  The answer was “God is everywhere!”

As a child, that never made any sense to me.  How can God be in terrorist attacks, or in disease and death?  Where is the freedom of spirit in those moments?

Kabbalah teaches that those are shattering moments.  When all order is interrupted.  Within those moments the possibility of something new is being born if we learn to live and learn from the darkness.  With the gift of hindsight, we can look back and see examples from the past.  What seems dark and hopeless in one moment may have created the possibility for light and hope in the next or in the future.

I counsel with many PTSD soldiers and other trauma patients.  Their stories are unnerving and tragic and stay with me long after my client has left the session.  However, after twenty-five years of engaging presence with these people I can see their struggle to find authenticity and realness in their lives is the slowly evolving light shinning forth from within their spirits.  If they will stay with the process it always happens.

Each time their light shines forth I am amazed and in awe!  My trust in what is… deepens.  My faith in a larger truth and reality is reinforced.  My belief that freedom of spirit is the result of darkness is renewed.

Susan Austin-Crumpton
Executive Director & Founder
The Estuary, Inc.

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Susan Austin-Crumpton

Susan Austin-Crumpton, Executive Director and Founder of The Estuary and The School of Healing Arts. Susan’s intention to be fully present and alive with passion and joy requires an authenticity that is her hallmark. Dedication to study and commitment to her clients and students provides The Estuary and the community involved with purpose and meaning not often found in traditional leadership. Susan Austin-Crumpton speaks of The Estuary as being like a wheel, with the staff being each of the spokes, the programs and services as the rim and she is the hub of energy and identity at the center. As the founder of The Estuary and The School of Healing Arts, she has developed the healing techniques and skills taught by the school and integrated into the individual practices of the staff. Susan’s leadership, innovative practice methods and classes have created the foundation of The Estuary and The School. Her varied career history as business owner, a teacher, and a psychotherapist, make her uniquely qualified to bring grounding to healing practices that originate outside the medical and psychological mainstream. Her techniques are truly complimentary to allopathic medicine and traditional psychotherapy, not in conflict with them, as is evidenced by the community support and acceptance over the past twenty years. As the primary teacher at The School of Healing Arts she combines the techniques of energy healing and psychology with Kabbalistic principles into her psychotherapy techniques that bring lasting change into the lives of those who work with her. She works with individuals and groups specializing in depression, anxiety, couples, health issues, addiction, and spiritual connection to life’s meaning and purpose. Susan has completed four years of study in healing science with The Barbara Brennan School of Healing Science and three years of study in Integrative Kabbalistic Healing with Jason Shulman's A Society of Souls. She also holds a degree in counseling psychology from the University of Louisville. She is a pastoral counselor ordained by The Estuary. Susan specializes in integrating transpersonal psychology with energy therapies effectively embodying the mind, body and spirit connection. She has been in private practice for 18 years serving individual processes, coupleship work, group experiences, and health related issues. She is the primary teacher at The School of Self Healing Arts and teaches transpersonal psychology, energy anatomy and therapies, world religion, and experiential therapy techniques. Susan is married and has two daughters and two grandchildren. She loves to study, to learn and grow personally and professionally, and is committed to the well being of her family, students and clients.