“...I give you your faults.... I think you'll find they'll come in very handy...."
-- Madeleine L’Engle, A Wrinkle in Time
I, too, have many faults. I have spent a lifetime trying to rid myself of me. Many religious teachers told me I could change me and find God. Many spiritual teachers taught me that I could “transform” me into these powerful virtues. I used to have the fantasy that I could finally change myself, become more likeable, more kind, more good, more successful, more organized, more loved . . .MORE!
Still, I am always failing, and always finding myself as less. I just cannot get to perfection from imperfection. My list of faults simply widens and deepens as I fail at goodness.
I love the line the prophet Jesus often responded with when asked who are you? Instead of listing his attributes he would simply reply “Who do you think I am?” I prefer to believe that he was asking anyone who came near him to simply experience him as a whole instead of define him by his list of virtues.
I like that.
So, I have come to treasure my list of faults. I have used them all to save my world. Without my irritability I could not discern what I want. Without my anger I could not find the edges and boundaries of myself. Without my codependency and caretaking I would not know that I am a nurturer and a lover. Without my restlessness and longing I would not forever be a learner and a seeker. I do love being a learner and a seeker!
I am encouraging you to become a treasurer of your faults. You can use them; not for power and control over others or self; instead, use them as a full experience of yourself reframing that energy into longing and believing. Therefore saving the world!
Executive Director & Founder
The Estuary, Inc.