A Full Experience of Myself, by Susan Austin-Crumpton

“...I give you your faults.... I think you'll find they'll come in very handy...."
       --  Madeleine L’Engle,  A Wrinkle in Time

I, too, have many faults.  I have spent a lifetime trying to rid myself of me.  Many religious teachers told me I could change me and find God.  Many spiritual teachers taught me that I could “transform” me into these powerful virtues.  I used to have the fantasy that I could finally change myself, become more likeable, more kind, more good, more successful, more organized, more loved . . .MORE!
 
Still, I am always failing, and always finding myself as less.  I just cannot get to perfection from imperfection.  My list of faults simply widens and deepens as I fail at goodness.
 
I love the line the prophet Jesus often responded with when asked who are you?  Instead of listing his attributes he would simply reply “Who do you think I am?”  I prefer to believe that he was asking anyone who came near him to simply experience him as a whole instead of define him by his list of virtues.
 
I like that.

So, I have come to treasure my list of faults.  I have used them all to save my world.  Without my irritability I could not discern what I want.  Without my anger I could not find the edges and boundaries of myself.  Without my codependency and caretaking I would not know that I am a nurturer and a lover.  Without my restlessness and longing I would not forever be a learner and a seeker.  I do love being a learner and a seeker!
 
I am encouraging you to become a treasurer of your faults.  You can use them; not for power and control over others or self;  instead, use them as a full experience of yourself reframing that energy into longing and believing. Therefore saving the world!

Susan Austin-Crumpton
   Executive Director & Founder
   The Estuary, Inc.

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Susan Austin-Crumpton

Susan Austin-Crumpton, Executive Director and Founder of The Estuary and The School of Healing Arts. Susan’s intention to be fully present and alive with passion and joy requires an authenticity that is her hallmark. Dedication to study and commitment to her clients and students provides The Estuary and the community involved with purpose and meaning not often found in traditional leadership. Susan Austin-Crumpton speaks of The Estuary as being like a wheel, with the staff being each of the spokes, the programs and services as the rim and she is the hub of energy and identity at the center. As the founder of The Estuary and The School of Healing Arts, she has developed the healing techniques and skills taught by the school and integrated into the individual practices of the staff. Susan’s leadership, innovative practice methods and classes have created the foundation of The Estuary and The School. Her varied career history as business owner, a teacher, and a psychotherapist, make her uniquely qualified to bring grounding to healing practices that originate outside the medical and psychological mainstream. Her techniques are truly complimentary to allopathic medicine and traditional psychotherapy, not in conflict with them, as is evidenced by the community support and acceptance over the past twenty years. As the primary teacher at The School of Healing Arts she combines the techniques of energy healing and psychology with Kabbalistic principles into her psychotherapy techniques that bring lasting change into the lives of those who work with her. She works with individuals and groups specializing in depression, anxiety, couples, health issues, addiction, and spiritual connection to life’s meaning and purpose. Susan has completed four years of study in healing science with The Barbara Brennan School of Healing Science and three years of study in Integrative Kabbalistic Healing with Jason Shulman's A Society of Souls. She also holds a degree in counseling psychology from the University of Louisville. She is a pastoral counselor ordained by The Estuary. Susan specializes in integrating transpersonal psychology with energy therapies effectively embodying the mind, body and spirit connection. She has been in private practice for 18 years serving individual processes, coupleship work, group experiences, and health related issues. She is the primary teacher at The School of Self Healing Arts and teaches transpersonal psychology, energy anatomy and therapies, world religion, and experiential therapy techniques. Susan is married and has two daughters and two grandchildren. She loves to study, to learn and grow personally and professionally, and is committed to the well being of her family, students and clients.