Go Unafraid, by Susan Austin-Crumpton

“You have been chosen.  Go unafraid”
      - Paraphrased from John 15:16

I am experiencing the disruption of the solar eclipse!  Like the moon pulling at the rising and falling tides of the oceans so the solar eclipse pulls and tugs at me with emotional upheaval and challenge.
 
If I thought I had emotionally dealt with “that” or any past event or trauma… it returns again and again with new players and dramas.  Trouble is, I seem to always think this time my disruption is real and new.
 
I forget the part of me that years ago agreed to walk this narrow road to the narrow gate.  It is a road of emotional change and self mirroring.  I am in all that I see outside of myself.  THAT is the narrow road to my true self.
 
Kavanaugh or Intentional Kabbalah teaches that no matter what storms are brewing around me I always hold onto the thread of my true self.  This is the emotional balance and consistency that is at the heart of my soul.
 
Richard Rohr reminded me of this poem, I rewrote it in first person:

There is a thread I follow.  It goes among
Things that change.   But it doesn’t change.
People wonder about what I am pursuing.
I have to explain about the thread.
But it is hard for others to see.
While I hold it I can’t get lost.
Tragedies happen; people get hurt
Or die; and I suffer and get old.
Nothing I do can stop time’s unfolding.
I don’t ever let go of the thread.

     - William Safford, “The Way It Is”

So I change and hold on tight to the thread of my soulful self, while things and myself continue to change.  I have been chosen to seek and to seek change.   I am afraid.   Then I remember what Cora Howe said in 1932….

”Through this wide open gate, None come too early, None return too late”

Let the winds of solar eclipse blow and blow.  Here I AM.

Susan Austin-Crumpton
Executive Director & Founder
The Estuary, Inc.

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Susan Austin-Crumpton

Susan Austin-Crumpton, Executive Director and Founder of The Estuary and The School of Healing Arts. Susan’s intention to be fully present and alive with passion and joy requires an authenticity that is her hallmark. Dedication to study and commitment to her clients and students provides The Estuary and the community involved with purpose and meaning not often found in traditional leadership. Susan Austin-Crumpton speaks of The Estuary as being like a wheel, with the staff being each of the spokes, the programs and services as the rim and she is the hub of energy and identity at the center. As the founder of The Estuary and The School of Healing Arts, she has developed the healing techniques and skills taught by the school and integrated into the individual practices of the staff. Susan’s leadership, innovative practice methods and classes have created the foundation of The Estuary and The School. Her varied career history as business owner, a teacher, and a psychotherapist, make her uniquely qualified to bring grounding to healing practices that originate outside the medical and psychological mainstream. Her techniques are truly complimentary to allopathic medicine and traditional psychotherapy, not in conflict with them, as is evidenced by the community support and acceptance over the past twenty years. As the primary teacher at The School of Healing Arts she combines the techniques of energy healing and psychology with Kabbalistic principles into her psychotherapy techniques that bring lasting change into the lives of those who work with her. She works with individuals and groups specializing in depression, anxiety, couples, health issues, addiction, and spiritual connection to life’s meaning and purpose. Susan has completed four years of study in healing science with The Barbara Brennan School of Healing Science and three years of study in Integrative Kabbalistic Healing with Jason Shulman's A Society of Souls. She also holds a degree in counseling psychology from the University of Louisville. She is a pastoral counselor ordained by The Estuary. Susan specializes in integrating transpersonal psychology with energy therapies effectively embodying the mind, body and spirit connection. She has been in private practice for 18 years serving individual processes, coupleship work, group experiences, and health related issues. She is the primary teacher at The School of Self Healing Arts and teaches transpersonal psychology, energy anatomy and therapies, world religion, and experiential therapy techniques. Susan is married and has two daughters and two grandchildren. She loves to study, to learn and grow personally and professionally, and is committed to the well being of her family, students and clients.