Still Crazy After All This Time, by Susan Austin-Crumpton

I have many times over my lifetime worried about being “crazy.”

That was a word we heard often as I was growing up.  My mother called her older sister “crazy,” her sister in law “sick.” My ex-mother-in-law held her head and cried and cried daily over the death of her sister that occurred years and years earlier.
 
“I am like them,” I worried. “ I am like the crazy, sick ones!”
 
So in my early thirties I went to therapy.  I am still working on my “mental health” but today I see it as self integration and self connection.  I value the time and effort I spent integrating the painful and excluded parts of myself into a unified me.
 
As I have learned to forgive myself for being imperfect and a little crazy, I notice that I am more forgiving and compassionate with those different (or more like the disowned parts of myself).  I offer many thanks to all of the helpers, workshops, and schools I have attended for all of these years.  I think it all worked!
 
Today I find myself remembering endlessly playing in the crawl space under our house with my sisters, joyfully sitting on the doghouse with my sister as children planning to be missionaries together in some foreign country.  I can see my Dad’s smile across a busy loud room of family.  My ex-husband and his wife visited last week.  I’ve known him since I was fourteen years old.  He feels like family. 

I realize that I have joy and clarity that comes from integrating childhood hurts, forgiving myself and others for mid-life suffering and relishing in great joy and inclusion the second half of my life.

Richard Rohr says I am enjoying in later life “second simplicity”.  He says for some reason if we allow it, all becomes a strange and wonderfully integrated whole self that we call simple. 
 
Maybe that’s just another way to be crazy, but I’m loving it.

Susan Austin-Crumpton
Executive Director & Founder
The Estuary, Inc.

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Susan Austin-Crumpton

Susan Austin-Crumpton, Executive Director and Founder of The Estuary and The School of Healing Arts. Susan’s intention to be fully present and alive with passion and joy requires an authenticity that is her hallmark. Dedication to study and commitment to her clients and students provides The Estuary and the community involved with purpose and meaning not often found in traditional leadership. Susan Austin-Crumpton speaks of The Estuary as being like a wheel, with the staff being each of the spokes, the programs and services as the rim and she is the hub of energy and identity at the center. As the founder of The Estuary and The School of Healing Arts, she has developed the healing techniques and skills taught by the school and integrated into the individual practices of the staff. Susan’s leadership, innovative practice methods and classes have created the foundation of The Estuary and The School. Her varied career history as business owner, a teacher, and a psychotherapist, make her uniquely qualified to bring grounding to healing practices that originate outside the medical and psychological mainstream. Her techniques are truly complimentary to allopathic medicine and traditional psychotherapy, not in conflict with them, as is evidenced by the community support and acceptance over the past twenty years. As the primary teacher at The School of Healing Arts she combines the techniques of energy healing and psychology with Kabbalistic principles into her psychotherapy techniques that bring lasting change into the lives of those who work with her. She works with individuals and groups specializing in depression, anxiety, couples, health issues, addiction, and spiritual connection to life’s meaning and purpose. Susan has completed four years of study in healing science with The Barbara Brennan School of Healing Science and three years of study in Integrative Kabbalistic Healing with Jason Shulman's A Society of Souls. She also holds a degree in counseling psychology from the University of Louisville. She is a pastoral counselor ordained by The Estuary. Susan specializes in integrating transpersonal psychology with energy therapies effectively embodying the mind, body and spirit connection. She has been in private practice for 18 years serving individual processes, coupleship work, group experiences, and health related issues. She is the primary teacher at The School of Self Healing Arts and teaches transpersonal psychology, energy anatomy and therapies, world religion, and experiential therapy techniques. Susan is married and has two daughters and two grandchildren. She loves to study, to learn and grow personally and professionally, and is committed to the well being of her family, students and clients.