Off the Grid, by Susan Beyler

I’ve been ‘off the grid’ for almost 4 weeks.  I was blessed to have my out-of-state daughter and grandchildren stay with me for almost a month. 

They’re gone now and the house is still – not just quiet, but still.  There is no wind from children moving through and it is such a different sound.

My friends would check in and make sure I was fine – how are you holding up?  Have you had enough yet?  Ready for quiet? 

My answer was always ‘no’.  Not with sentimental energy of ‘I’m going to miss them when they’re gone’, but an overwhelming feeling of gratitude and blessing. 

What a gift to immerse myself in their world, their eyes, thoughts, jokes, pranks, emotions, a-ha moments, cuddle moments, games, imagination, building projects, destroying projects, stories, tucking in, saying good morning, singing – so much singing! – their learning, exploring boundaries, loving.

It reminds me of being with the ocean – when I’m there I’m in the ocean and the ocean is in me and we dance.

by Susan Beyler
Integrative Therapist, The Estuary
(615) 337-7017


Susan Beyler

Susan graduated from the seven year program with The School of Self Healing Arts in 2001. She has been on staff at the school for 7 years and she has a private practice as a pastoral counselor with The Estuary. As a Montessori teacher for many years she has experience working with human inner growth and development. With her midwife training she is able to “birth” the spiritual growth so necessary to living a whole and meaningful life. She works with individuals accompanying them on their journey to a full relationship with themselves and their lives. Susan specializes in energy therapies with family of origin issues, addiction, depression, coupleship and trauma. She does hands on energy work with physical health issues and emotional balancing and strengthening. Drawing on her experience as a middle school teacher, she offers therapeutic workshops in subjects such as healthy boundaries, grief and loss, and relationship skills. She lived on The Farm (one of the oldest running intentional communities known for its midwifery, vegetarian cuisine, and alternative technology) for many years, and is a grandmother.