Go Unafraid, by Susan Austin-Crumpton

“You have been chosen.  Go unafraid”
      - Paraphrased from John 15:16

I am experiencing the disruption of the solar eclipse!  Like the moon pulling at the rising and falling tides of the oceans so the solar eclipse pulls and tugs at me with emotional upheaval and challenge.
 
If I thought I had emotionally dealt with “that” or any past event or trauma… it returns again and again with new players and dramas.  Trouble is, I seem to always think this time my disruption is real and new.
 
I forget the part of me that years ago agreed to walk this narrow road to the narrow gate.  It is a road of emotional change and self mirroring.  I am in all that I see outside of myself.  THAT is the narrow road to my true self.
 
Kavanaugh or Intentional Kabbalah teaches that no matter what storms are brewing around me I always hold onto the thread of my true self.  This is the emotional balance and consistency that is at the heart of my soul.
 
Richard Rohr reminded me of this poem, I rewrote it in first person:

There is a thread I follow.  It goes among
Things that change.   But it doesn’t change.
People wonder about what I am pursuing.
I have to explain about the thread.
But it is hard for others to see.
While I hold it I can’t get lost.
Tragedies happen; people get hurt
Or die; and I suffer and get old.
Nothing I do can stop time’s unfolding.
I don’t ever let go of the thread.

     - William Safford, “The Way It Is”

So I change and hold on tight to the thread of my soulful self, while things and myself continue to change.  I have been chosen to seek and to seek change.   I am afraid.   Then I remember what Cora Howe said in 1932….

”Through this wide open gate, None come too early, None return too late”

Let the winds of solar eclipse blow and blow.  Here I AM.

Susan Austin-Crumpton
Executive Director & Founder
The Estuary, Inc.