I Am A Mystic, by Susan Austin-Crumpton

“All things must come to the soul from its roots
From where it is planted"

                                  ― Saint Teresa of Avila

I am a mystic.

That sounded so exotic and important when I was younger. The only problem is I didn’t know what that was or how to get there. So, I studied, read and took classes.
The great mystics of the world like St Theresa of Avila or St John of the Cross seemed exotic and transformed mystics. As I studied their works, I knew they suffered greatly and didn’t seem to mind. St Teresa was very ill and yet had wonderful experiences of Oneness and Unity. St John spoke of “The Dark Night of the Soul” and I certainly knew that place but only felt alone and separate.

So, if I am a mystic for real how did I get there? What does it mean? Am I any happier or only ego driven to feel special?  

Here’s what I know. A mystic is a person who seeks. That’s me. A mystic is someone who contemplates self-absorption into a spiritual oneness often found to be always present within oneself. I’m learning that one.
Here is what I believe about how to achieve that contemplative desire to be absorbed into a transcendental Unity. I had to learn how to be self reflective!

Self-Reflective does NOT mean entering into a loop of self-denigrating thoughts such as “I am wrong”, “My boss hates me”, “It’s not my fault, it’s always someone else to blame”. Those are simply unhealthy, untrue thoughts that create beliefs and feelings of unworthiness instead of helping me feel whole and uplifted.

Also, self reflective does NOT mean untrue thoughts of grandiosity such as “I am better than anyone else” or “I know more than others”. These thoughts simply create ego driven feelings of separateness and superiority that are brief and not sustainable or real.
Self-Reflective means looking inward in a way that is an emotional experience of SELF. This is not thought driven emotion. For example, Imagine standing on a beach and feeling one with everything. Now notice you are feeling that emotion of ONENESS! That’s self reflective.
When I practice this beach meditation I am inching my way toward a sensation I experience as Oneness with the Divine and is sustaining, uplifting and repeatable.

Guess you might say I’m a mystic in training. Join me in this joyful training exercise this year.

Happy New Year to ALL!

Susan Austin-Crumpton
   Executive Director & Founder
   The Estuary, Inc.


Susan Austin-Crumpton

Susan Austin-Crumpton, Executive Director and Founder of The Estuary and The School of Healing Arts. Susan’s intention to be fully present and alive with passion and joy requires an authenticity that is her hallmark. Dedication to study and commitment to her clients and students provides The Estuary and the community involved with purpose and meaning not often found in traditional leadership. Susan Austin-Crumpton speaks of The Estuary as being like a wheel, with the staff being each of the spokes, the programs and services as the rim and she is the hub of energy and identity at the center. As the founder of The Estuary and The School of Healing Arts, she has developed the healing techniques and skills taught by the school and integrated into the individual practices of the staff. Susan’s leadership, innovative practice methods and classes have created the foundation of The Estuary and The School. Her varied career history as business owner, a teacher, and a psychotherapist, make her uniquely qualified to bring grounding to healing practices that originate outside the medical and psychological mainstream. Her techniques are truly complimentary to allopathic medicine and traditional psychotherapy, not in conflict with them, as is evidenced by the community support and acceptance over the past twenty years. As the primary teacher at The School of Healing Arts she combines the techniques of energy healing and psychology with Kabbalistic principles into her psychotherapy techniques that bring lasting change into the lives of those who work with her. She works with individuals and groups specializing in depression, anxiety, couples, health issues, addiction, and spiritual connection to life’s meaning and purpose. Susan has completed four years of study in healing science with The Barbara Brennan School of Healing Science and three years of study in Integrative Kabbalistic Healing with Jason Shulman's A Society of Souls. She also holds a degree in counseling psychology from the University of Louisville. She is a pastoral counselor ordained by The Estuary. Susan specializes in integrating transpersonal psychology with energy therapies effectively embodying the mind, body and spirit connection. She has been in private practice for 18 years serving individual processes, coupleship work, group experiences, and health related issues. She is the primary teacher at The School of Self Healing Arts and teaches transpersonal psychology, energy anatomy and therapies, world religion, and experiential therapy techniques. Susan is married and has two daughters and two grandchildren. She loves to study, to learn and grow personally and professionally, and is committed to the well being of her family, students and clients.