Sometimes I Pray, by Susan Austin-Crumpton

“Prayer is meant to be a direct line of communication
With the depth of our heart
And the height of our soul”
-- Jason Shulman

Sometimes I pray.
There I said it.

I was taught as a child to pray.
I learned to pray when I was afraid or in trouble
or couldn’t find my purse.

Usually, I don’t know who I’m praying to.
Often I don’t believe anyone or anything is listening.
I have doubts about a god
high up in the air
dispensing or withholding favors or stuff.

More often I meditate
for short moments of time.
Sometimes I wish I could sit for an hour
like I did in energy school.
So fabulous to do that with hundreds of people.
I could really feel ME.

Now I meditate almost every day
in short do-able
moments of time.
Closing my eyes,
feeling the stillness,
opening my head at crown chakra
and waiting, waiting
to fill with something so holy
I can only stumble at describing.

It fills me with peace and trust
It centers me
it feeds me.

I am so looking forward to classes
starting again in September.
My students and I
find that quiet
“praying” space

Susan Austin-Crumpton
Executive Director & Founder
The Estuary, Inc.