I was backpacking alone in Utah, carrying a huge pack on my skinny hips that looked like raw meat. I felt invincible, capable, with every step validating that there is nothing I can’t do. I loved it! That was many years ago.
After three years at the School of Healing Arts, the concept of expansion/contraction finally hit me. It hit me today as I drove to work on my fourth day of super funk.
The following is my first entry in a series about the 12-step spiritual program of recovery.
In my opinion, alcohol is a drug. Just as cocaine, heroin, or crystal meth is a drug. The 12 step program will work for any drug of addiction. However, since I am referring to the 12 step program defined in the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous, I keep the wording of each step found therein. Please, feel free to replace the word "alcohol" in this issue with whatever suits your situation.
I was deeply moved when reading the following passage in the book Kitchen Table Wisdom by Rachel Naomi Remen (paraphrased):
When children are judged, criticized and reshaped into what is wanted rather than supported, not allowed to develop naturally into who they are, they “form spores” and wall the unloved parts of themselves away.
This is the season for compassion. How can someone with ADD find compassion for themselves in a season filled with societal traditions that are difficult in the best of times and monumental during the holidays? One may really want to send holiday cards and yet never accomplish the task. Friends who visit may be handed letters left unfinished from the 1990's, or some bizarre craft project instead of the well-respected holiday card or invitation for coffee. Shame and guilt can pursue you like a storm cloud in a cartoon.