My mother died in 1995.
Yet her voice sounds in my mind over and over again with the same message from my childhood, adulthood and even after her death I still hear her saying, “Susan, don’t forget who you are!”
I don’t like summer.
I know, I know! Most of you do like it! My husband loves it. He loves to be hot, to feel the sun, and the extended light of the long days.
I love rain, clouds and dark days. On those days I feel free and exempt from all duties. My soul feels free! Maybe it was because my Baptist Grandmother always gave herself permission not to go to church on the Sundays it rained. She believed being in the rain made one sick! So I have permission to make my own choices on dark rainy days.
The following is my sixth entry in a series about the 12-step spiritual program of recovery.
Step 6 is found in Chapter 6 (Into Action), first paragraph on page 76 of The Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous. “We have emphasized willingness as being indispensable. Are we now ready to let God remove from us all the things which we have admitted are objectionable? Can God now take them all – every one? If we still cling to something we will not let go, we ask God to help us be willing.”
The following is my second entry in a series about the 12-step spiritual program of recovery.
Step 2: “Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.”
In step 1, discussed previously, we discovered that we were hopelessly powerless to stop using a substance that was destructive to our lives. We were strangely “insane” in that we couldn't or wouldn't stop using a substance that was poisoning our physical and emotional health and ruining all that we held dear in life.
“...Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark in the hopeless swamps of the not-quite, the not-yet, and the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish in lonely frustration for the life you deserved and have never been able to reach. The world you desire can be won. It exists.. it is real.. it is possible.. it's yours.”
- Ayn Rand
Have you ever clung to the verse Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future." The word prosper is very alluring. What if the plans for me are to be wealthy? Wow, I can't wait for that! How about you?