One would think after years and years of study and therapy that I would have a handle on my shame.
"Don't bend; don't water it down; don't try to make it logical; don't edit your own soul according to the fashion. Rather, follow your most intense obsessions mercilessly."
― Ann Rice
Many years ago in another lifetime, I was leaving a marriage, in which I did not work outside the home. I left weeks of prepared meals in the freezer and directions for each taped on the refrigerator door. I had spent our entire marriage trying to earn my keep and my value (since I did not bring in financial income).
A few years ago, I went to Rwanda. I trained for months to have my body ready and able to hike hours in the jungle to see the gorillas Dian Fossey gave her life protecting. I had dreamed of seeing these giant animals whose DNA is almost identical to ours. I had not imagined the impact of seeing them on my mind and my spirit.