I too frequently wake up in the middle of the night with my mind whirling in a thousand directions at once. That’s when I listen to podcasts. I am comforted by the drone of other voices other than my own lulling me back to sleep; unless, the podcast is interesting.
Last month, my life partner and best friend passed away from a journey with cancer. Words cannot describe the pain and sorrow I feel constantly. The word "lost" best describes my life at this moment and I find myself walking around in circles hoping I will wake up from this dream state and my life will go back to normal. Unfortunately, reality says otherwise and my new life does not include the beautiful man that was a part of my life for the last seven years.