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Love as Presence, by Susan Austin-Crumpton

He walks along beside me, towering over me holding my hand.
When I speak, he listens, interested, present.
He couldn’t offer me a higher compliment or kindness.

To be treated as if I matter, as if my words had value and weight brings meaning and presence.
Sharing his ideas and creativity, listening, hearing, feeling the change within my being his presence offers,
reminds me it is truly no accident he is here.

My Life works as a result of so many factors coming together.
Every person every friendship, romance, even illness and seemingly tragic events,
formed as a conspiracy or accidental occupancy of a million things
coming together each as they should be, were intended to be.

Only to be learned from and honored in retrospect.

Then the aloof one arrives, throwing his arms around my neck.
“Come on” he says, “Come with me”.
My heart opens into a permanent prism of love and iridescent light.

Life stretches behind me as well as way in front of me in gratitude
for the many accidental elements creating my lovely past.

And, life is stretching out before me into my endless exciting future.

Susan Austin-Crumpton
Executive Director & Founder
The Estuary, Inc.

Speaking Truth to Power, by Susan Austin-Crumpton

Speaking Truth to Power, by Susan Austin-Crumpton
"Don't bend; don't water it down; don't try to make it logical; don't edit your own soul according to the fashion. Rather, follow your most intense obsessions mercilessly."
                            ― Ann Rice

Many years ago in another lifetime, I was leaving a marriage, in which I did not work outside the home. I left weeks of prepared meals in the freezer and directions for each taped on the refrigerator door. I had spent our entire marriage trying to earn my keep and my value (since I did not bring in financial income).

Life Force, by Susan Austin-Crumpton

Life Force, by Susan Austin-Crumpton

It seems much of my life has been filled with meaningless activity.  In my younger years, without much of me to operate with, I tried to please as I was hoping for value and purpose.  I worked at jobs I hated, tried to stay in struggling relationships for the “sake of the children”, and was mediocre at parenting.